Omegle

You: Hello

Stranger: hiya

You: Mmm?

Stranger: how are you today?

Stranger: mmmm what?

You: I was just waiting to see what you were typing.

You: How are youuu doing?

Stranger: lol im ok tired but good... yourself?

You: I'm alright. Why are you tired?

Stranger: didnt get much sleep last night and ive been doing housework all morning

You: Yuck.

You: I live with three guys right now and I can't be bothered to clean up after them, haha.

Stranger: I live with 3 guys and i hate it but if i don't do it it never gets done and i hate living in a pigsty

You: That's why I make an event out of it. My roommates are gonna go party in a bit so I'm planning on drinking a few shots of rum and making this place look nice for the first time in a month.

You: Maybe you should try that. Probably after you get some sleep though.

Stranger: lol screw the sleep... i'll end up snoozing all day lol i might do that though have a few and then pump the music and clean lol

You: Hahaha! You go to school?

Stranger: Nah i work.. you?

You: I'm still just a student.

You: How come you live with three guys?

Stranger: i live with my boyfriend, his brother and his brothers boyfriend .... how old are you if you still go to school ?

You: I'm turning 20 this summer.

You: You're a girl? I feel really bad for you then.

Stranger: Lol you're a guy i take it?

You: Mm-hmm.

Stranger: Actually a guy picking up after 3 guys is worse...it's in my DNA apparently to be a maid is a womans job lmao

You: It's the same thing, though. I can't live in a pigsty for too long.

You: I just keep hearing my mom saying, "Clean this mess up."

Stranger: hahaha... it's funny how you never stop hearing that no matter how old you are lol

You: Haha, yeah I guess so.

Stranger: So you're from USA i'm guessing?

You: Yes. You're not?

You: Also, what brings you to Omegle?

Stranger: No i am not American.. I was bored of Housework and wanted a break. What about yourself?

You: I like hearing people's stories, and I think being on the internet allows people to be either really honest or really funny.

You: Also, I don't want to do my homework yet.

Stranger: hahaha well i can relate to the 2nd reason

Stranger: it's true more people open up when they're not face to face with you

You: Plus, it's strangers! Something about someone being a stranger makes it easier to tell them your secrets, don't you think?

Stranger: Yes it kind of is easier to say it to someone i don't know.... So in saying that.... Have you got any deep dark secrets you want to share with a Stranger lol

You: Actually, I wanted to ask you if you'd tell me a story? I wanted to hear about the last time you felt lonely, and what it was like.

Stranger: The last time i felt lonely huh??? that's not a very good story i feel lonely alot lately

You: Then tell me about that.

You: (For what it's worth, I've been feeling really lonely, too).

Stranger: Why have you been feeling lonely... you sound like you've got alot of friends??

You: No fair, I asked first!

Stranger: Awww come on.... i'm not good at talking about me ;)

You: Those are usually the people with the best stories, though.

Stranger: Well what do you want to hear really?

You: We don't have to talk about feeling lonely. Instead, tell me about when you feel the least lonely.

Stranger: Well i suppose that would be when i'm with my boyfriend, Usually in bed before he goes to sleep. or when we're doing things together without any other girl around so i know he focuses on me

Stranger: i know i sound selfish but that's just me

Stranger: What about you?

You: That's not selfish! That shows how much you value his attention.

Stranger: Well he and others see it as selfish and find it weird that i want his attention

You: I wonder why. You don't sound like you're clingy or too needy.

Stranger: Well they see it as though i am... i'm just in love i suppose

Stranger: So i've told you mine now tell me yours... lol

You: I have a few really good friends. And when I'm with them, it's like I don't need anything else.

You: I love them. You said you were in love, too. Does that mean you love your boyfriend?

You: What is love to you?

Stranger: it's hard to put the meaning of love into words.... But i suppose to me love is an undying want to be with the person you're with, a need to know what they

Stranger: want or need and helping them get it

Stranger: but like i said it's hard to put it into words without it sounding weird

You: That doesn't sound weird at all. Is it like wanting them to be the happiest they can be because that makes you happy, too? Or is that not it at all?

Stranger: That's it... you've summed it up for me... i could never have put it so well

You: But what about you?

You: I mean

You: I don't know what I mean, haha.

Stranger: Lol Well since you don't know what you mean how about we change the subject to....... When was the last time you were in love?

You: I really like that question. But I don't think I've ever been in love. Not yet. Love and "in love" or different things to me, though. Is it the same for you?

Stranger: Yes it's the same.... there is a major difference.

Stranger: Well how about, When was the last time you had fun?

You: Wait, wait--what's the difference for you?

You: Between love and in love?

You: I'm actually trying to write a letter to my friend about that, but I don't know what to say.

Stranger: Well being in love is like what you said before being in love is wanting the other person to be happy no matter what and living to be with them and just love is liking the company of a person, spending time with them where you're the happiest you've been in ages, i'm not too good with words when describing my side of things at times

You: Do you think one is truer? Or more honest?

You: What you said makes a lot of sense, by the way.

Stranger: You know i don't know how to answer that question you've stumped me

You: You said you were in love with your boyfriend. But do you love him?

Stranger: i do actually, i love him more than anything in the world he is the first person in my life that i have truly, honestly and unconditionally loved

You: Do you know if he loves you the same way?

Stranger: Well it's nothing for him to say it becasue any one can say it, but the things he does kind of proves that it might be the case

You: Things like what?

Stranger: well i'll give you an example,

Stranger: Last year his family started hating me and decided to make up lies about me and assault me, he could have listened to them and left me but he didn't he stayed an has suppourted me throught the court cases against them. and i didn't ask him to choose his parents did and he still chose me

You: Oh, man. What were they saying about you? Why would they hate you?

Stranger: His little brother accused me of stealing his credit card, and using it for lesbian websites (i'm bisexual) when it was proven that he was wrong and that he used it and blamed it on me his whole family turned on me, They were calling me so many names that i hate to repeat

Stranger: Bf's little bro hit me in the head pushed a door onto my head and knocked me out, and then he decided to kick me in my private areas causing some damage

Stranger: and he still wasn't charged with assault

You: That's terrible!

Stranger: Yeah i couldn't walk outside my door for 2 months after it but i've gotten over it and moved on

You: And your boyfriend stayed with you. I think you're right, he really must love you.

You: I'm sorry you had to go through that, though.

Stranger: Yeah he stayed an put up with my depression... i had a bad childhood so i got used to it years ago

Stranger: i still sit here with a smile on my face that even though his family hates me he loves me and would die for me

You: You're not depressed anymore, are you? I've been doing a lot of reading about depression lately.

Stranger: No i do get bouts of depression every now and then but it's very rare lol

You: If I ask you what it's like, and if you talk about it, will it make it worse for you? I'm afraid that I might be depressed, but I don't know if I'm just saying that to have an excuse.

Stranger: it won't make it worse at all.. Why do you think you're depressed?

You: I don't see a point to living anymore. And I don't mean I'm suicidal, rather, I just can't care about the things I should anymore.

You: Although I'm a lot better now that I was last year.

Stranger: Well from someone who has tried to commit suicide twice you sound like you're just over it all.... You must have alot that's been stressing you out to be feeling that.

You: Not really. I just feel lonely. How do you know when another bout of depression is coming on?

Stranger: Well i don't feeli like making any effort, i don't feel like cleaning up, or going out, i don't Want to talk or listen and i get fed up with people who tell me their problems and stuff

You: What starts it? Or does it just happen slowly?

Stranger: usually it's something someone says that starts me off angry and then goes into a depression it happens relatively quickly with me but i have been diagnosed with manic depression and i am ADD so it makes it worse

You: What makes it so bad that it drives you to consider suicide? I've only been that far down once, and even then it wasn't a serious attempt.

Stranger: my first attempt was when my mum had deserted me to be with a man, i was left to take care of an elderly woman who was dependant on me, i was 16, had been raped by my then boyfriend, and had been blamed for things that weren't my fault i just felt that the world was against me

You: You've been through a lot, haven't you?

Stranger: yeah and that was the start of my chronic depression

You: It makes me wonder what kind of person you really are.

You: You sound very strong.

Stranger: you have to be in this society us Aussies are resilient

You: I believe it. Probably a lot more resilient than most Americans.

Stranger: lol debatable at times

You: Haha, yeah, I guess so! Why do you say "you have to be in this society", though?

Stranger: The way things are theses days compared to say 10 years ago it's a higher pressure society in which you can't fail

You: What happens if you fail

Stranger: People criticise you for what you're doing worng and don't see the outside influences that add stress to your life

You: What if you just don't care?

Stranger: Well those people will eventually go away i suppose.... i wouldn't know i took myself out of the way of criticism ages ago so i didn't go crazy

Stranger: I've kinda got to go have a shower but i really like talking to you.... so you can either wait for me here or email me and we can continue this discussion later on my email is ashleighbullpitt@yahoo.com.au

You: Haha, I think I'm gonna go drink some rum and clean this pigsty, but thanks for talking with me.

You: I'll save for your e-mail for sometime in the future, but for now, have a great day.

Stranger: You too good luck with the cleaning

You: Thanks.